I'm proud to report, that thus far, this is the best period in my
pregnancy - sickness and weariness are at a minimum and the little one
is making himself known! In the past week our lil' boy has become quite active, even apart from the usual rise in activity after I eat anything really sweet (like chocolate, whew, he gets ALL excited after I eat chocolate). I know I'll probably regret this later, but I love the increase in activity. I can actually feel more distinct parts poking out now and then, it's really amazing. It is a strange phenomenon to look down at your stomach and see a little bump moving around like in those horror/sci-fi movies where you see an alien or worm creature crawling under someone's skin. Ok, so that might not be the best image, but I can't think of a better example, but it feels like your organs are dancing around in there. Naveen has been able to feel some of the movements too, so there is a lot of, "Oh Nav, come quick, feel right here!" in our household and Nav hurrying from the other room, nearly tripping over the dog, to try and catch the moment. It's fun to see his face and hear his reactions of "whoa, wow babe, I can feel him!" I think it makes the obvious reality that he's actually IN there more REAL.
My only recent "down-point" was last week when I went to IKEA and got a little "over-stimulated". You know how they have different room spaces set up all cozy and perfectly accessorized? well, it basically made me want to revamp our entire house, which is of course is not feasible at this point. Picture me wondering around IKEA with a glazed look over my eyes, touching things softly and humming and haah-ing, yea it was pretty pathetic. So I settled for getting a new 99cent silverware tray since our old one was pretty disgusting. Surprising how good it felt to reorganize the silverware drawer, one act of order in the midst of what I feel is "chaos" in other parts of our home...so now back to my "office", which will be the baby's room. That has been a progressive project...lasting almost a month now, clearly I have lacked some zeal, but ultimately I'm trying to leverage my IKEA experience to inspire me instead of just feeling defeated. Having it most of it done by MONDAY is my goal. The good thing is I did find a really great changing table that is also a dresser..check it out
http://www.ikea.com/us/en/catalog/products/S19842534Anyway, call it my nesting stage or whatever, but I've come back from IKEA-ville and reminded myself that the most important prep for this baby is my internal process, not all the external things I want to be "perfect" before he comes. And seriously, that conclusion has brought about big changes already, Nav and I are both sensing how crucial this time is for us- the 3 months we have before the baby comes, not just for preparing his room etc, but really preparing our HOUSE, the intangible things, the flavor and atmosphere that shape the life God wants our family to express. We've started by looking back at all God has done already (from DW's message on "looking backward for forward strength"), remembering what He has taught us thus far and embracing new levels of deep transformation. God has been shifting things and has been meeting us more than half-way when we open ourselves up to Him more and more, giving Him room. SO yes, there are lots of movements taking place in all kinds of ways in this new environment of opportunity - it's a powerful and life-changing season for us - and we know we've only seen the tip of the iceberg! It's a catalyst season.